If I could go back

Today was a very strong reflection of time past, wishing i could go back 😦 maybe change some things, hold on to some moments, direct the path thus directing the outcome of what we face now in this futuristic path we call the present life.It started with remembering days of been just a kid with little but no worries, to been a mother even though i had very little knowledge at a very early age of what it took to be a mom, the boys were young and easily maintained on a daily scheduled, well to a point :), times were tough yes, but it was maintained as i knew what i had to do and i did it, there was no disrespect, no name calling, no tears of disappointments, 😦 

As a single parent life was tough and still is, I spoke to another mom today she was having such difficult time with her daughters, where she actually put them out of the house i spoke to her for a while on the phone and during our conversation we both shared a lot and realized we both have the same problems she had daughters i had boys, i was able to share my life as a single parent with her the up’s and down’s assured her she did not fail, she did all she can to make sure her children had the best opportunity which included living in a good township, going to a good school, having to work hard to pay all the expenses that come with it she should be proud and no matter the situation no child should ever say such hateful words to their mother, told to her, hold her head up high as i know it does hurt, as i too get it from the one i sacrifice so much for and she is not alone.  Words are damaging.

 

 

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About mssjackie

Licensed Mortgage Banker currently for the states of NY & NJ with over 18 years of mortgage banking experience, as a single mother of two sons ages 27 and 21 years old :) Came from the Island of Jamaica at the age of 18 years old with just the shoes on my feet and the clothes on my back. Soon pregnant with no support or hope, I had to find a way to survive. Through many struggles and hard times, survive I did. Now I would like to share my experiences with others who may be facing the same hopelessness but with the desire to survive the struggles facing them.
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